My Eyes (In Yours)

Would that I could see my words
On her tongue
Or my habits
In the turn of their cheek
That in the song of sound she spoke
I could hear my own melodies.

But all I see is her in me
In the way I hold my head
Or sway to the music of the world.

Would that I could mean so much
To someone worth the world to me.

My GCSEs and what they meant to me

On results day, only six letters mattered;
ABC
DEF
I managed to get ten.
A*A*
AAAA
BB
DD
Do they even matter?
DD
(What about my other grades?)
DD
(But I passed all the rest!)
DD!?
(Aren’t you guys proud of me?)
DD!
(but i did my best…)

All I heard was I didn’t try hard enough
That I should have done more than I did
So if my best just wasn’t good enough
Then i’d do what I wanted instead.

Writing about writing when you’re struggling to write.

My little black book
Sits in my back pocket,
Collecting the words
That slip off my tongue.
With a little black pen
That touches my temple,
It filters a record
Of all that I see.

So I strain through the truth
In my little black book
Try to present it
So you’ll understand.

But my words are stained glass.

A fragmented picture.

They don’t quite make sense.

When you can’t see the lines.

Dragons

I often feel as though poets are dragons
Our tongues, flames of
Passion, fury, envy or love.
There is both creation
And destruction
In the way we burn.
Because before the fire gets out
It must work its way through
Veins, lungs and throats,
Scorching our insides in the hope
That it can scald you also.
Know, that if our words burn,
We are already blistered.

Soul Windows

For a moment
Everything stops.
A single silver string suspends
Five years of half hopes
And dangerous desires.
My eyes bore in to hers,
Searching for a flicker
For anything
A single spark to show
That all is not lost.

But her pupils
Are dark, deep as the ocean.
The moment breaks
A wave upon her pale blues iris.
And all I have left
Is the turn of my heel,
The lights of the city
And the echo of the closed door.

Brambles

Brambles flourish in the dark,
Flay your mind and choke your heart,
And if you feed them fear and hate,
Of your soul a husk they’ll make.

Wolves will paw at bolted doors,
Starving, tunnel under floors,
And if, by guile, a friend they make,
Swift and sure, your soul they’ll take.

Anger dwells in human hearts,
Lurks and spreads it’s evil arts,
But crush it down with life and love
And it will never harm you.

Why I need feminism

I am not a machine,
Who’s libido lurks behind his eyes
Like an ancient evil shackled to my mind;
Who sees exposed skin and cannot find
The energy to NOT reach out and touch.

I am not my manliness,
Who said my gender had to be
Muscles, power suits and machismo?
Who told me I can’t love dresses
Or choose sowing over sports?

I am a product of our society.
But I am not controlled by it.
I am a man.
But I need not be the problem.

I am my ability to listen,
To understand that no means no
And that silence is never a yes.
To understand that boys should not be boys
And that by now, we should know better.

I am my desire for change,
To stop pretending we are all one step
From being wild, lust filled monsters.
To stop pretending that we don’t realise
Our world, our society, is in imbalance.

I will not sit back and watch
My children believe their lies.
I will not be told that
We cannot change the way things are..
I will not be part of the problem.

This is why I need feminism.